When I had my smash in the black car I couldn't get my head round how it happened on a road I had driven a million times and in the same manner ...brisk granted but not reckless. I have driven it since and still don't know how I managed it sometimes these things just happen reading your story makes me realise just how bloody lucky I was and how it would of impacted lives if things had been different.
Try not to rack your brains to much pal it will wear you down mentally