Sounds like head ruling heart. You love the look etc but your heads telling you to be more sensible. I went through this for a few years. I really wanted an RS4 avant but my head was saying don't be a fool it'll cost too much to run etc. Reality was it was affordable but I didn't buy one in the end. I've learnt a lot from that, that's why I bought the zed. You only live once and all that good stuff. I still have a craving for an RS4 and may still buy one one day. Do I feel I am better off financially for not buying it? Nope, not one bit! If you don't gel with the car for any other reasons than financial ones then sell up & move on but if its affordable and you like it then why not stick an exhaust on her & make the most of that lovely V6