Fair play mate, reading this thread makes me feel somewhat selfish for the times I've felt like I've been hard done by when something has gone wrong. I have a huge amount of respect for you and all you've been through, even more for the fact that you're turning this around to help others, you're a stand up guy. I don't know you personally or knew your dad but I am sure he would be so proud of you! Hang in there and in reference to getting back in a Zed, treat yourself to a 370